January 2010
I feel like such a fucking freak. I can't even...
Fuck spines.
Fuck ‘major spinal surgery’.
Fuck back ache.
Fuck not being able to sit how I want to.
Fuck being around my family 24-fucking-7.
Fuck not having someone to give me a cuddle when I keep crying.
Fuck people saying to me “Ohh! you ate! Well done!” all full of fake fucking pleasure at it.
Fuck my dad pretending he really wants to be here.
Fuck his snide...
I'm going to go read Fabulous magazine and the...
Why are your parents always going to walk in on an...
My mum just walked in as Emily went “Just so you know my first thught when I see you is not I want to fuck that girl.”
:| :|
She just went “Glad to know Rosie.”
I’ve had to pause it now while she sorts out my washing.
Plus side of major spinal surgery? Don’t have to pick anything up for yourself ;)
This girl I went to school with, used to be one of...
Sorry, but she winds me up.
I need to go persuade my mother to buy me things from the Topshop website seeing as I still have another 2 weeks till I can go shopping.
Then I’m going back to bed to watch more Skins. Also my left hand is quite warm and my right hand is freeeeeezing cold.
Damnit. I want a cuddle.
Whyaren’tyouhere:(
Okay. You can all stop clapping when I eat...
'Remember.. No likey.. No lighty..' ;) LAV IT.
Normally I'd be a bit more sad you cancelled on...
Ahhh. I have like.. zero energy, and I've just...
You all seriously have no idea how much I miss cuddling up to someone and falling asleep.
Yeah granted its only been a couple of weeks but still.. It helps?!
Idk. I just wish I had some energy backkkk.
I can't sit down for longer than 20 minutes...
Rosie smells ;D
1titpeggy:
rose-mariee:
1titpeggy:
rose-mariee:
1titpeggy:
rose-mariee:
1titpeggy:
rose-mariee:
(via 1titpeggy)
David smells worse ;)
Lies! I can smell your toes from here!
yeah? well i can smell your FACE from here :D
Shave your hairy armpits :( They are creating a stench cloud in my room :( LOL
Do i really need to remind you of the time you ruined my life you horrible,...
Rosie smells ;D
1titpeggy:
rose-mariee:
1titpeggy:
rose-mariee:
1titpeggy:
rose-mariee:
(via 1titpeggy)
David smells worse ;)
Lies! I can smell your toes from here!
yeah? well i can smell your FACE from here :D
Shave your hairy armpits :( They are creating a stench cloud in my room :( LOL
Do i really need to remind you of the time you ruined my life you horrible, HORRIBLE person?!
No I...
My favourite thing to text people?.."Nodding my...
This is why I love Lucy, “I was listening to that..”
:D :D
Rosie smells ;D
1titpeggy:
rose-mariee:
1titpeggy:
rose-mariee:
(via 1titpeggy)
David smells worse ;)
Lies! I can smell your toes from here!
yeah? well i can smell your FACE from here :D
Shave your hairy armpits :( They are creating a stench cloud in my room :( LOL
Do i really need to remind you of the time you ruined my life you horrible, HORRIBLE person?!
Rosie smells ;D
1titpeggy:
rose-mariee:
(via 1titpeggy)
David smells worse ;)
Lies! I can smell your toes from here!
yeah? well i can smell your FACE from here :D
Rosie smells ;D
(via 1titpeggy)
David smells worse ;)
I think my dad has actually become obsessed with...
He sat there last night and said “I think I love him.”
I think he was joking.
And he just said “I need a scarf. I bet Sean has a scarf.”
Yeah so. I woke up after a lay in today for the...
La la laaaa :) Finally worked up the courage to look at my self properly in the mirror after my operation, and I’ve decided that it has all been worth it. I’ve got a little bit of a slant to my shoulders, but thats just where I’m trying to find a way to stand that doesn’t hurt too much.
But my hips… It’s like.. Wow. Haha :) I can’t remember the last time...
I apologize now for any random old re-blogs. My...
Here comes the point where the painkillers stop...
I love you Rosie :)
screamingskylines:
She just text me saying “I JUST STOOD UP!”
Bless her, she’s getting better :):)
I just found this.
I love you Clairey :) I’M HOME.
I go in to hospital today.
stilltwisted:
rose-mariee:
I’ve been awake for.. 10 minutes, and I can already feel the tears threatening to build up in my eyes.
I need to go wash my hair. Last proper wash I think it’s going to have for a while, thats going to drive me mad.
You all have no idea how much I am so not brave enough to do this.
You’ll get through this. You may not feel brave, but after this ordeal you’ll know...
TUMBLR. I AM HOME.
6 days in hospital.
5 hour operation.
I now have 5 screws in my spine, with bits of my rib attached..
AND NOW I AM HOME.
All went well till my Morphine drip stopped working, and no one could work out why for ages, I was in AGONY.
More updates later, when I get my laptop up and running :)
By Tumblr.
If Tumblraity returns while I’m in hospital.. I am going to get so annoyed.
Yeah. I'm scared.
it will be tomorrow morning when I go down to theater that I’ll be worse, I’ll be crying my eyes out, and I’ll probably do a lot of that today. Is it possible to run out of tears?
I feel like I should tidy my room, make it nice to come back to. I don’t know. I just..
I wish I didn’t have scoliosis. And I wish I could fast foward to when I come out and make things...
I go in to hospital today.
I’ve been awake for.. 10 minutes, and I can already feel the tears threatening to build up in my eyes.
I need to go wash my hair. Last proper wash I think it’s going to have for a while, thats going to drive me mad.
You all have no idea how much I am so not brave enough to do this.
Why is when people say they love me, I refuse to...
Little bit worried about something thats nothing to do with hospitals right now.
Bleugh.
Last post for a while. Unless Tumblr Mobile...
Hahaha. Oh dear.
Should maybe go sleep?..
I guess I have something to look forward to when I come out now. Maybe even make me want to get out even quicker?! Ah. I don’t know.
I’m happy, but.. I just wish that it wasn’t being dulled down by the fact that I am fucking terrified.
Ah well. Have a good two weeks without me. I’m more sad about abandoning Tumblr than I am...
I go in to hospital tomorrow. I am fucking...
And it would have been really nice to see you before I went in. Even if it was just for a little bit, thats enough to keep me going.
...
I WANT TO SEE YOU.
:(
I'm off to go get chocolate and crumpets and hot...
Hi I'm Rosie. I'm using a piece of shit Samsung...
I am pissed off.
I always get really keen when I see people with...
By the look of him.. That won’t be too long :)
Instead of buying clothes tomorrow. I should maybe...
Or I could get a new piercing and piss the hospital off a little bit.
My 7 piercings will close up while I’m in there.
2 days left.
2 nights left in my own bed with my crappy, old, soft, comfy matress.
I DON’T WANNA GOOOOOO.
I won’t miss everyone going in the bathroom when I need to though…
I WANT THINGS BACK NOW. I MISS THEM.
Phones fucked, doesn’t look like I’m doing anything today..
Cheers phone. Really. Go ahead and break just...
*sings*Everythings fucked uppppppppp.
And its all my faultttt.
Seriously. Why do I have to get good at driving,...
That little red Renault Clio with matching wheels is going to be sitting on my drive for longer than I thought :(
I found this from agessssssss ago. I love Clairey.
screamingskylines reblogged you:
I wish…
rose-mariee:
I wish I didn’t have scoliosis.
I wish I had longer hair, blonder hair.
I wish I was skinnier.
I wish I could go back to when I was underweight. Is that bad?
I wish I had the motivation for college.
I wish I didn’t always miss you so much.
I wish I didn’t dream so much.
I wish I didn’t have to go the hospital on Monday.
I...
G'night. I didn't wake up till 5pm. Its only...
And yeah.
Note to self? DO NOT READ ABOUT SPINAL FUSION SURGERY JUST BEFORE GOING TO BED YOU IDIOT.
My phone is stupid. I can't get on Facebook from...
I had to go shopping for a new matress the other day, cos mines so soft I won’t be able to get up from it for a couple of weeks, and it won’t support my back.
THE MATTRESS I HAVE TO HAVE :| :| :|
It may actually be more comfortable to sleep on the floor. Seriously.
Also my mum WON’T stop talking about Wednesday, it’s doing my head in, and going over and over and over it....
Blah, blah, blah. I miss youuuuu.. blah, blah,...
"This picture is the nicest picture you have ever...
“ever tooken”
Love it. Bed time now :)
Hai. G'night, this is to try and unbore me a bit.
1. I have blonde hair, but in a way I kinda hate it. I also know if I had any other coloured hair, half the amount of people would stare at me than they do now, and I’d miss it.
2. I hate Dominoes pizza. Every time with out fail, I bite it, the cheese comes off, and leaves me with a boiling hot bit of the tomato sauce that I burn my mouth on. Plus its just wrong.
3. I miss Myspace.
4. I...